I thank you from my heart for sharing your story. Be strong.
You are absolutely correct that the line between addiction or professional gambler is very thin. Last night I read the book of Doyle Brunson, the legend pro poker player. He writes:
"The year 2004 had been a hard one for me. I had a gastric bypass operation and wasn't feeling too good at the WSOP. The cash games were better than they had been for years, and I was playing in them instead of the tournaments. I wasn't playing well and was also playing very unlucky.
I got loser, and instead of taking a break like I usually do when I go on an extended losing streak, I kept playing and I lost the staggering sum of $6 million.
I was seventy years old."
Now, why in the first place did someone 70 years old, who had a gastric bypass and doesn't feel well and has $6 million in the bank, want to play high stakes poker?!
Maybe because he is addicted to it? Yes, the line between addiction and professional gambler is very thin indeed.